Keep strong
Friday, November 26, 2010: a random date for me to know, and you to wonder about.
I'm strange, when you ask me to say a little of myself, I start talking how I see myself. My heart, to be more exact, my internal person. Currently, since it is April 2013, I've finally become healed after an interesting week. For the Triduum, I realized and learned many important things that will become part of me now. But this week alone has been one of the happiest I've lived. It started horribly, with me remembering what happened in April the year previous, but amazing people kept fighting for me until I learned to fight as well. Also got asked to Prom (never thought that possible) and participated in an Airbands (which was amazing beyond description) this week, so I'm very happy right now. I'm at the point of happiness where if I simply think of why I'm happy I could burst into tears just because of that pure joy. Friendship has been a difficult thing for me, since I could never bring myself to trust people. I have so many friends here and am extremely grateful to you guys since you helped me out of a dark slope when I first came here. I care about each and every one of you, you are all so incredibly awesome! And thanks to you guys, I can trust a whole lot more in real life as well. Since my friends in real life are fighting for me and consistently showing me that they are there for me, I can finally see it and I understand a whole lot more. So I'll always owe most of my happiness here, thanks for always being such a support! Also, I can only admit it here and can't in real life, I have a crush (even though it is well beyond simply 'liking' him) and he is one of those people I've been able to rely on and always willing to listen. He is one of those people who thinks the same way, has many admirable qualities (such as being very logical, quiet, kind, and deeply devoted to God), and who has earned every ounce of my trust. (:
I want to speak of Shelfari members who have changed my life on here.
Jenny- One of my best friends on here no doubt, you always have something funny and mad to say. Think I'm happier every day now. And I'll admit, a little madder too. Thank you.
Thank you so much... I just wish that I could have told you that one last time. Thank you for bringing my life back up. Oh God, thank you. I miss you so much, but I'm able to smile back on the idea that I had such an awesome person in my life and all our funny jokes, and for helping me get into Quidditch, especially when I was shy on here. Thank you for everything! Also, thanks for being someone I could rely on, because now I'm willing to let your great light shine through me to others, so you'll never catch me down!
Now, not in any particular order.
Ashlyn- Another best friend, one of the truest Ravens there is. You helped me look forward to Shelfari more often, and have helped me rethink my study habits. Thank you.
Anna- One of my bestest friends, you always lighted up my day. You also helped me cry for the first time in a while, when I thought you would leave Shelfari forever (by the way, that was meant as a good thing, it feels bad when all you've ever cried about is being in pain). Thank you.
Del and Kelsey- You both helped me feel accepted into this group and were always good guides when I felt lost. I have always loved Del's riddles and Kelsey's weekly question of how the week went by. Thank you.
Harley, Brynn, Wicked, Kairi- Sadly you guys are not on too often, but when you are it is such a fun time. Thank you.
Bo-Peep, Nancy, and Chandani- Best buddy we must go through many things together. For all the fun times, spent as friends forever. Thank you.
Austere- You've always been an amazing person that I am grateful for for many things. Even if you do tend to go on killing sprees, you always made me laugh. Thank you.
Helen, Pam, Feonyx, Dora, and Keezie- I have much respect for you, and am glad to have gotten to know you better. You have such amazing knowledge and concept of friendship. Thank you.
Fatima- One of the first people I got to know, I always admired how much work and effort you put in our school. I'm glad to have known you and how you are always light and strong, and truly have a big heart. Thank you.
Amanda- It feels I don't see you too often, but I'm always glad when you are around. You tend to be cheerful and a definite true Raven. Thank you.
I shall end that list for the moment. It is in no way near completion, but sadly I'm only allowed so many characters. Although, I highly doubt any of you will appear on my profile, unless you turned stalker suddenly. But overall, I'm glad to have known of Hogwarts. I'm glad of have met everyone on there. You all have changed my life so much, just by being their to give the supporting hug or tap on the back. I am forever thankful to you, because you guys are what saved me when I felt lonely, even though I have never met any of you outside of this computer screen (with one exception). And, just thinking of how much you guys mean to me, makes me tear up. Thank you my family of friends, I owe so many moments of happiness and belongingness to you. I love you all so much, and not in a creepy way. :)
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