- Calgary, AB, Canada
- member since September 4, 2008
Hey Jarett. Very briefly I looked at all of the methods that you suggested and I ended up doing Byron Katie's "Judge your Neighbor" worksheet, which helped to relieve/reveal some of my judgments/feelings towards others and myself. I did this activity the day you sent me the message. After that day though, I didn't feel like going back to any of the other methods, but I was/am still holding strong, negative emotions.
On overall spirituality though, improvement is noticeable (not so much to my parents as to me) because I am learning to focus my awareness WITHIN. What helped greatly was the "I Can Do It" Conference I attended on Saturday-November 13th in Tampa, Fl. [Sponsored by Hay House Publishing] Imagine, I was finally around like-minded people- a couple thousand of them! The energy was truly amazing. I saw Louise Hay (founder of Hay House), Marianne Williamson, Sonia Choquette, Denise Linn, and Brian Weiss. They were all great. Sonia Choquette's workshop was especially interesting because I, and another attendee, "randomly" got chosen out of around 300 people to help with the presentation. What happened when the both of us went up in front of the stage was simple, profound, and emotional. When the other attendee went up to the stage he was overwhelmed by the love and crowd; I was there next to him happily enjoying the crowd, love, and spirit, but when I noticed his emotion I immediately felt love for him and gave him a heartfelt hug that put half of the crowd in tears. Sonia ended up giving each of us a gift of one of her works. Anyway, the conference was beautiful, loving, welcoming, and peaceful. I would love to go again.
Hey Jarett, I want to ask you about the subconscious mind. Do you know of any resources I can use to explore my subconscious mind? Many dreams I've been having and other signs have pointed to suppressed emotions and a hidden/unresolved fear that I'm holding on to. I'm beginning to think that I'm carrying an experience (or several experiences) that I haven't forgiven from the past. I strongly feel that these subconscious fears are perpetuating my non-compliance with school and basically all ordinary tasks. Also, if you know of any kinds of writing activities that help you dive into your emotions/subconscious I'm ready to take em' on. Thanks :-)
Right now I'm the opposite; the mind is everything but silent. I've been resisting the present moment. I've been looking everywhere but WITHIN. Either way I see this as an "Educational Depression" and I notice growth behind all of the noise. "Thy Will Be Done."
Well, I've tried the arm-method with my mom and my brother but they haven't shown as much interest, willingness, or patience to actually try to verify the validity of the testing as I have. So I wouldn't say that the "Integrity" is there. The "o-ring" method, as I've tried it, doesn't seem to work. Mainly though, I haven't been seeing k-testing as a necessity for me right now so I haven't been fully engaged in trying to test.
I think I've had rare instances where I was able to physically feel the "positivity" or "negativity" of something. It's very interesting.
The logarithms and other concepts weren't bad enough to distract me from the essential message, which I saw as a convergence of science and spirituality, and that the Power of The Absolute governs the Force of the limited view of duality. Still though, (and I don't know your experience) I have not been able to satisfactorily confirm the validity of Behavioral Kinesiology. Not that this matters much to me; I don't mind not being able to "calibrate," I would just like to confirm the truth of the work because I have heard how this style of Kinesiology hasn't yet been conclusively verified through "double-blind" experiments. Either way, what matters most is the pure realization of LOVE as the True Nature.
I'm on Chapter 4 now in "Eye." It's been great.
Hey Jarett. Just wanted to give you an update of the last post. I finished "Power vs. Force." It was really interesting with the concept of behavioral Kinesiology and the map/scale of consciousness.
I've just started "The Eye of The I" and I'm already awed. I've only read the first chapter and that alone is... I don't even know what to say.
Funny stuff there :)
You're right though, there really is nothing to say but that if it's His will, AMEN!. Surrender...
I'm about to start Chapter 3 on "Power vs. Force." So far it's been very interesting with the concept of Kinesiology and the universality of the experimental data. Hawkins' personal experiences are profound as well. I'm very excited to continue reading.
Hi Jarett. The reading is going great, thanks for asking. I just received my library order of "Power Vs. Force;" I wanted to read this one before "The Eye of The I." Yesterday I finished "The Universe in A Single Atom," which gave clear insight about the Dalai Lama's relationship with science and his openness to peaceful cooperation. With "A.C.I.M." I've been on hold because I felt that I was reading too quickly, so I'm now getting ready for some re-reading (it's great so far though--but it's obvious that it's going to take over a year to get through).
On spirituality, it's been very educational, but confusing as well. I've been rebelling my parents' wishes. As I've said, I was enrolled (against my will) in a private/homeschooling system... but I've been refusing to do the required assignments for a few reasons that my parents don't understand. The main reason, of course, is my thinking/ assuming the "Individual identity". I keep on insisting that my reading and studying spirituality is primary and the rest is secondary. I'm just truly feeling a detachment from the material world.
Wow, you've just reminded me again of the power of the mind. The Placebo effect is no joke. All you need is the true power of faith. I just got caught up in all of the "fear-mongering."
On David Hawkins, I've just purchased "The Eye of the I," thanks to you and your review. I'm sure I'll learn a lot. I also just purchased "A Course in Miracles." Let's see how this learning goes.
Truly well said.
You're right about the rarity of advanced spiritual environments like the ones I speak of... and I realize what the odds are of me finding them, I just naturally try to think of a "better" "more suitable" environment. Of course though, as you've mentioned, if it is to happen the environment will find me. So as for now just observe the beauty of this moment...
I want to ask about health. Only a few months ago I was educated about the dangers of many of the foods sold by major companies. I was especially informed by a website titled: NaturalNews.com... Have you heard of it?
Well, as I've said, I was withdrawn from high school; I dropped out. This was a total surprise to everyone who knew me. I felt that I didn't really have any other option. From there my parents just began searching for Therapeutic Boarding Schools( about five and a half months ago), which are private schooling environments designed for emotionally sensitive kids that provide professional counseling through licensed psychologists. I agreed at first, but after heavy contemplation I decided that it wasn't for me (you can imagine how mom and dad felt). So, as hard as it was, my parents left more time to me and I still didn't make a decision, so my parents just tried to find the easiest possible way for me to get a High school diploma, and they found a Christian academy that they enrolled me in (without my approval) 2 weeks ago where I can obtain a diploma in as little as 3 months. But they still didn't get that in my case the difficulty level isn't the issue. Of course I understood and understand their course of action; I wasn't acting or making much of a decision so of course as parents they feel obligated to step in and choose for me.
So, currently, I'm still at the level of noncompliance... because I'm thinking too much... or better yet, because I'M THINKING. I've learned plenty of truly beautiful knowledge and wisdom through personal experience and spiritual texts, but intellectual comprehension is not enough... I just still don't feel comfortable enough to be a traditional student. I'm being very picky with the environment. I keep insisting that if the school system was functioning coherently with my specific mental state, and that if I was in a situation with like-minded people, I would be working to learn wholeheartedly.
My parents and I are mainly frustrated because there is a misunderstanding between us, and that evidently impairs our ability to RELATE to each other. They say things like "Kevin, you just don't want to do anything!" and "Those books you're reading aren't going to get you anywhere. They're written by crazy people. You have to live in the real world Kevin. Those books are telling you about a dream world. Why don't you read books about law? Be a lawyer." And yeah all that good stuff :-) Still though, they do have great patience compared to how other parents would take this, and they both are only doing what they feel is right for me... so I definitely appreciate that, but that doesn't mean that it won't get slightly frustrating.
So yeah, I wrote too much. That's it.
Yes, I thank you as well for conversing. I believe this can help us both organize our thoughts. And we can both learn from each other.
There's a lot I can say and ask but I don't know where to start. Maybe I can elaborate more on my current situation and go from there, unless you have anything specific you want to get into- or any questions.
For me, spirituality "began" a little over a year and a half ago when I was 16 years old while preparing for the Holy Sacrament of Confirmation (full/formal initiation into the Catholic church--mainly because my family is Catholic). I began to question my belief; I began to think for myself and assess various possibilities, so I eventually started to gradually develop a new philosophical/spiritual worldview. This worldview distorted my relationship to almost everything around me. My parents, being Catholic and held tightly to their old conditioning of thought, developed a strong misunderstanding of me. This eventually escalated to the level of schooling and I felt compelled to leave the high school I was attending because I felt confused about my purpose their and I felt that that particular schooling system was incoherent with my thoughts (Luckily my parents were understanding enough to realize that my withdrawal was necessary). Anyway, I won't say much more because I'm probably boring you to sleep.
Basically up to now I have learned so much valuable and profound information in the time that I was away from formal schooling... but I still have a lot to learn.
And about my being an autodidact, I meant it as in I am currently out of what is commonly viewed as formal education. But if we're speaking in the absolute sense, I don't believe for a second that "I" "am" "alone."
By the way, I truly appreciate your openness and kindness with spending the time to write.