I wake up realizing that I am late for school. I muttered a curse under my breath and changed into my normal clothes. I run a brush through my hair. I ran downstairs and out the door getting into my car. I drive to school it was finally Friday. I got to school and parked my car in the usual spot I got and walked up to the door. First period had already started so I decided I wouldn't go to first period. I walked to the empty band room at the back of the school. I walked into the room and sat at a set of drums I pick of the drum sticks and started to play and sing.
I feel insane every single time
I'm asked to compromise
Cause I'm afraid and stuck in my ways
And that's the way it stays
So how long did I expect love to outweigh ignorance
By that look on your face I may have forced the scale to tip
I'm not insane I'm not insane
I'm not insane I'm not - not insane
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
Shame pulses through my heart
From the things I've done to you
It's hard to face but the fact remains
That this is nothing new
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin
But deep inside I'm not insane.
I'm not insane I'm not insane.
I'm not insane I'm not - not insane.
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You learned your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy
Now that I've lost you it kills me to say
(Hurts to say)
I tried to hold on as you slowly slipped away. (Slowly slipped away)
I'm losing the fight.
I treated you so wrong now let me make it right.
(Make it all right)
I'm not insane I'm not insane. Ha Ha Ha Ha
I'm not insane I'm not - not insane.
(Mother)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(Said it all)
Come back again it's almost easy
(You learned your lesson)
Come back to me it's almost easy
(But still you fall)
Come back again it's almost easy
Once I was done I sat there and stared at the drums. Tears springing up in my eyes. Then I heard someone clapping I looked up and it was Jake. I mentally cursed at myself for even coming to school in the first place. I looked at him through my hood.
"Your amazing Waverley." He smiled that smile I fell for him a little bit more.
"Thanks." I muttered looking down at my feet.
"It's a good song too. I might add." He chuckled a little.
"It's my favorite song." I said putting the drum sticks back down.
He nodded. "Why aren't you in class?" He asked.
"I could ask you the same question." I snapped at him
He held up his hands. "Hey, I was just askin' a simple question."
"I didn't want to go to first period. There now you know." I snapped again wishing he would leave me alone I just didn't want to be bothered.
"Yeah I don't like first period either." He said moving closer and sitting in a chair across from me.
"I don't think you understand." I said my hood falling off my head.
"I'm pretty sure I can understand what you going through. Josh might not understand but I do." He said leaning his elbows on his knees.
My eyes light with fire. "You have no right to bring Josh into this. You don't know anything about him!" I nearly screamed.
He eyes were wide. "Calm down. I was just saying..."
"No I know what you were trying to say you don;t have to explain it to me. I am not stupid!" I yelled.
"I never said you were stupid! I was just trying to tell you that I understand better because I am going though the same thing!" He yelled back.
I kept my mouth shut waiting for him to finish.
"Waverley. I'm sorry about what I said I didn't mean to make you mad, but I do know how you feel." He said holding onto my wrist now. I didn't pull away, but he did. He took off his jacket and showed me his arms. I nearly passed out because of what I saw. Scars up and down his arms. You could tell which one where the deepest. He had fresh ones too that were still stained red from the blood. I sat down in a chair my hands shaking. I took a shakey breath and let it out.
"I-I-I can't believe what I am seeing." I muttered.
"Well you should believe it because its right here in front of you." He whispered softly.
The bell rang and first period was over. I look at the door and Josh stood there with fire lighting in his eyes. I ran out of the room after him and didn't look back to see if Jake was following or not.
