So I'm not going to dig an outline around this one. I'll put it plain and simple. I'm in love with one of my best friends. Both girls. She's straight. Her name...er, I'll call her V. She lives in Florida, and is an online friend. I don't CARE what y'all say about online friendships. She IS real. She's NOT a pedophile. I've been friends with her for almost two years now(October 13th is official day we met) and she...just, she has been here for me forever. She's my older sister twin. =) Or...at first she was. Now I...I have a crush on her. I was unsure about it for a while but I feel...different when I'm talking to her versus my other best friends. Like...I can't explain it. I get all hyper and cheery and just...depressed when we can't talk-friends on facebook.
She said that she won't leave me no matter what. I actually just sent her a message yesterday asking what her opinions on Gays/Bisexuals were(active Christian, but that doesn't entirely matter). Hasn't answered yet, but she's a busy girl. Homeschooled, goes to Theater School.
Anyways...yesterday morning I was just looking at her profile picture and I just...broke down. I wanted to tell her...I've been going to her more and more when it feels I can't reach my sister(by not blood =()H, but this time...I couldn't. It doesn't help that...nevermind. I don't know if she wants me to tell.
I just...need advice on getting over her? I'm in love with her. All she knows is I have a crush-ahh, awkwardness. I KNEW she was straight, too. I was being such a dumbass, but I guess H convinced me. It helped, anyways, to tell her. Especially I guess since...I know it'll never happen.
Help, please. I don't want to lose her, I love her. But I need to somehow change this crush-love to sisterly love. I really want school to start, just so I can get over her. Find a new guy, get my heart broken. Probably will go back to loving her, but oh well. :/ I'll be distracted for a while at least...