It's called FAITH. It's like the wind - you can't see it, but you can feel it, and you know it's there.
And maybe it's because you don't truly KNOW God? However, I feel that it is obvious He is working in your life - He is knocking at your door. That's why you're now thinking so much about it. God is giving you the opportunity to trust in Him, to follow Him, to give your life to Him, and to start a WONDERFUL relationship with Him....but in the end, it's up to you whether or not you open the door and let Him in.
You need proof? Take a look around you! Look at your loving mother. She's a gift from God. Look at your accepting community. It's a gift from God. Look at your friends (even if it's just Hogs ones) - they're all gifts from God. Look at your home and shelter. It's a gift from God. Look at the food you eat and things you drink. Those are gifts from God. Look at the clothes you wear. Those are gifts from God...
My favorite - Look outside. Look at the sun shining brightly, bringing warmth to the world. Look at the clouds that are always changing into fascinating shapes. Look at the sunset - the most beautiful paintings ever created. Look at the stars and the moon and the trees. Look at the flowers and little animals. Look past all that - out into space. There's a great big wide world out there, big enough for God, great enough for God.
I'm going to show you again something that is on one of my older blogs - http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_CVM17uHChCU/S0VQ9hZ0_sI/AAAAAAAAAF4/71AFjag-lh4/s1600-h/uesc_02_img0091.jpg This is the center of the Whirlpool Galaxy. A CROSS! Jesus is the center of everything! Let me show you something else...http://hphotos-snc1.fbcdn.net/hs255.snc1/10232_1294288395934_1192029544_30871990_617366_n.jpg Laminin "is described as part of a family of proteins that hold us together"...Jesus is the center of US, holding us together, supporting us!
There are soo many things out there that prove there is a God. Yes, some things about Christianity seem unlikely...very...but that's what it's all about - miracles, faith, the unthinkable, the impossible.
I have been Atheist. I have believed there is NO god and I am so glad I found the truth. God SAVED me...in more ways than one. He has saved my life numerous times, literally. If there was no God...you would never have known me. I would have been gone a long time ago. He knew I was going to be given a chance to be in a relationship with Him so He stopped me, giving me time to make my choice. I made it. Now it's your turn.