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I can relate Rye. My depression began a year after my second daughter was born. It was not post-partum depression, rather major clinical depression accompanied by anorexia nervosa. The anorexia lasted 3 years, the depression nine. Though I had excellent medical care--dozens of antidepressant meds, thousands of hours on the "couch", numerous admissions to psychiatric wards, and over 100 shock treatments, it wasn't until I addressed the spiritual roots to my own illness that I gained freedom from it. Things like shame, low self-worth, unforgiveness, failure to trust God to take care of me, etc.
I am now a writer and speaker and have a book about overcoming depression scheduled to release in October 2008.
I'm sorry to hear you really struggled with depression after graduation. Hope things are getting better now!
Peace,
Sharon
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rye
- Sunday, November 18 2007
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Hi sharon. Thanx for replying. I'm Ok now. My depressive experience was some 4 years ago. It did not last long. All I could remeber is that I was struck by low self-esteem. I'm happy right now with my work. Last school year I took MA Industrial Psychology. But I stopped for almost a year now. Hopefully I could continue my study again by the next school year. Everytime I'm having problem, this I tell to myself - God won't give us problem we can't handle.
By the way, ur doing great job- a writer!!!! ur story inspires me a lot.
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Like you, Sharon, I found that the spiritual/psychological aspects like self-worth, a burden of external and internal expectations (real and/or assumed), learning how to set my own borders and recognize - and stand up for - my limits were the stepping stones to getting moving again in this life.
I went through a serious depression (although my will to live stayed with me), stepped out of everything, ... was in a specialized clinic for 2 months (the German insurance system is great!) ... and chose to stay off of medication, never took any. For me that was/has been the best choice. Each choice and path is individual, yours is also unique. I do believe though that de-pression is caused by de-pressed emotions or other issues. Only by allowing them, bit by bit (as they/we are ready) to come to the surface and be released, with a professional at your side if possible/necessary, can we really experience the life energy which is ours.
L'Chaim - to life!
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I agree with you: God will never give us anything we can't handle...with his help. My problem was I tried to handle way too many things on my own!
I hope you can get back to school too if that's your goal. And I'm so glad to hear your experience with depression is behind you!
Peace.
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rye
- Tuesday, December 4 2007
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Nowadays I have a different perception on depression. Depression for me is more of a contrast. Just like in any drawing, dark tones and shades adds weight and beauty to the picture .
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Barb N
- Friday, February 1 2008
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I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder II in 1995, but I experience more depressive episodes than hypomanic episodes. In 2003 I ended up with treatment-resistant depression, that is, I had been on just about every medication out there except for the MAOIs or tri-cyclics but things that used to work for me stopped working.
I went through several day programs but those only helped for a while. Finally, in the spring of 2006 I underwent ECT. It seemed like a miracle to be able to smile and want to do things again. I had a setback and underwent more treatment, which allowed me to pick up old hobbies and begin new ones.
In February 2006, I had another setback and have been on maintenance ECT every since (every 4 weeks). It eventually stopped working. I'm now back on meds and starting to do a little better -- I'm at least getting out of bed and showering every day!
I'm sharing this not to bring anyone down, but to let people know that mental illness is a lifelong struggle. Or, well, maybe commitment is a better word. :)
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rye
- Friday, February 1 2008
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It is such a delight to meet a bipolar person. Actually, i've been trying to make a self study about this. I even diagnosed myself to be bipolar too. he he! just for fun. Sometimes i'm productive, sometimes i'm depressed. life is a wheel of moods anyway!!! cheers to depression!!
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Barb N
- Monday, February 4 2008
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Well, bipolar is a little more than just being productive, though I admit that when I've been hypomanic, I was quite productive! Then I'd crash really, really bad and go into a deep depression. There's also racing thoughts that can be extremely annoying, or rapid cycling where you're hyper one minute and depressed the next.
It isn't a good idea to self-diagnose. If you think you're bipolar, you should mention it to your pdoc.
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DL N
- Wednesday, March 5 2008
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I was diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety disorder about 4 years ago. I'm on Wellbutrin, Effexor, Zyprexa and Klonopin. They seem to help by keeping me on an even keel the majority of the time. However my social life has suffered for it and the unexpected death of my mother and marital problems didn't help any. I'd like to get off the drugs, but I'm not sure how I'd cope anymore.
DLN
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Fran
- Thursday, April 17 2008
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Does the Klonopin make you sleepy? I have trouble with it. It calms me down- just too much!
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I can related that. I have been depression from 2006-07.. I am no longer active depression unless there is anxiety problem must solved it. My father had depression for years. My aunt ( late) was bipolar .. It comes to generation in my father's side. .
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My depression started a bit over 10 years ago. I started on prozac - one day it no longer worked, I went to another drug and after 3 or four years it didn;t work either - after being diagnosed as manic/severely depressed - I am on Effexor and Seroquel. I was also diagnosed with MS 15 years ago and am on Vicodan, two muscle relaxers, a neural pain reliver and sleeping pills. I just want to get through a day without worrying about something to the point of twitting out. I want to be normal.
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rye
- Friday, April 18 2008
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Rowan, whenever i'm depressed, i eat lot of chocolates, sodas, and coffe.!! It elavates my mood.!!
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rye
- Friday, April 18 2008
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fycarr, this i found out... i just eat a chocol8 coated caramel as i ride the jeepney on my way way home. after i finished eating, i fell sleepy. maybe caramel has content that relaxes the mind...
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