It's been three years since Adam's promise made Mia choose to live after the accident that annihilated life as she knew it. It has also been three years since Mia walked out of Adam's life forever.
Now both living the life they had dreamed of together but living separately, Mia and... read more
Adam Wilde Is in New York when he walks past a sign at SoHo that Mia Hall (His ex-girlfriend and narator of If I Stay) is performing and they meet up backstage and get one day to spend together before Adam has to go to Europe for his tour. In those few hours, they find they still love each... read more (warning: may contain spoilers)
“You don't share me. You own me.”Adam Wilde
“In that twisted, incestuous way of fate, Mia's a part of our history, and we're among the shards of her legacy.”Adam Wilde
“I imagine that old couple in tux and pearls tottering after her”Adam Wilde
“Of all the gin joints in the world, she has to walk into mine. But then I remind myself that I walked into her gin joint.”Adam Wilde
“Who says I breathe music? Who says I even breathe?”Adam Wilde
“I've come to realize there is a world of difference between knowing something happened, even knowing why it happened, and believing it.”Adam Wilde
“You made me stay!”Mia Hall
“<letting go> Unfurl your fingers one by one until your hand is open. But my hand has been clenched into a fist for three years now; it's frozen shut. All of me is frozen shut. And about to shut down completely.”Adam Wilde
“But I'm not crying out of grief. I'm crying out of gratitude.”Adam Wilde
“Something special is ending, and you're sad, but you can't be sad, because, hey, it was good while it lasted, and there'll be other vacations, other good times.”Adam Wilde
“And who ever told you that life was fair? Certainly not me. I am a follower of the School of Hard Knock.”Kat
“And she smiles at me, and it's like we're the only two people out here, the only ones who know what's happening. Which is that this song we're all singing together is being rewritten. It's no longer an angry plea shouted to the void. Right here, on this stage, in front of eighty thousand people, it's becoming something else. This is our new vow.”Adam Wilde
ONE
TWO-Needle and thread, flesh and bone
Spit and sinew, heartbreak is home
Your suture lines sparkle like diamonds
Bright stars to light my confinement
“stitch”
collateral damage, track 7
THREE
FOUR- The bow is so old, its horsehair is glue
Sent to the factory, just like me and like you
So how come they stayed your execution?
The audience roars its standing ovation
“dust”
Collateral Damage, track 9
FIVE
SIX-I’ll be your mess, you be mine
That was the deal that we had signed
I bought a hazmat suit to clean up your waste
Gas masks, gloves, to keep us safe
But now I’m alone in an empty room
Staring down immaculate doom
“messy”
collateral damage, track 2
SEVEN
EIGHT-The clothes are packed off to Goodwill
I said my good-byes up on that hill
The house is empty, the furniture sold
Soon your smells will decay to mold
Don’t know why I bother calling, ain’t nobody answering
Don’t know why I bother singing, ain’t nobody listening
“disconnect”
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NINE
TEN-Barrel of the gun, rounds one two three
She says I have to pick: choose you, or choose me
Metal to the temple, the explosion is deafening
Lick the blood that covers me
She’s the last one standing
“roulette”
Collateral Damage, track 11
ELEVEN
TWELVE-There’s a piece of lead where my heart should beat
Doctor said too dangerous to take out
You’d better just leave it be
Body grew back around it, a miracle, praise be
Now, if only I could get through airport security
“bullet”
Collateral Damage, track 12
THIRTEEN
FOURTEEN-The boogeyman sleeps on your side of the bed
Whispers in my ear: “Better off dead.”
Fills my dreams with sirens and lights of regret
Kisses me gently when I wake up in a sweat
“boo!”
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FIFTEEN
SIXTEEN-You crossed the water, left me ashore
It killed me enough, but you wanted more
You blew up the bridge, a mad terrorist
Waved from your side, threw me a kiss
I started to follow but realized too late
There was nothing but air underneath my feet
“bridge”
collateral damage, track 4
SEVENTEEN
EIGHTEEN-Are you happy in your misery?
Resting peaceful in desolation?
It’s the final tie that binds us
The sole source of my consolation
“blue”
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NINETEEN
TWENTY-Someone wake me when it’s over
When the evening silence softens golden
Just lay me on a bed of clover
Oh, I need help with this burden
“hush”
collateral damage, track 13
TWENTY-ONE
TWENTY-TWO
TWENTY-THREE-First you inspect me
Then you dissect me
Then you reject me
I wait for the day
That you’ll resurrect me
“animate”
collateral damage, track 1
Preceded by If I Stay.
This is a really sad book. Includes cursing, and references to drinking and sex.
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