Shy, 26-year-old Sophie Hegel is from a small-town, working-class background. Through hard work she's managed to get into a prestigious law school and become a Manhattan attorney.
At the beginning of the novel, she has just graduated from Yale Law School, won a prestigious fellowship...
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Shy, 26-year-old Sophie Hegel is from a small-town, working-class background. Through hard work she's managed to get into a prestigious law school and become a Manhattan attorney.
At the beginning of the novel, she has just graduated from Yale Law School, won a prestigious fellowship representing defendants on appeal at the NYC Public Defender's Office, and received a marriage proposal from her longtime boyfriend, when suddenly, one evening during dinner, she begins to feel a ball form in her throat. Not only can she not finish her dinner that night, but the ball (which she soon begins to call "fist ball" or "F-B" because it feels like a fist), just won't go away. It begins to wreak havoc on her life, making it very difficult for her to eat, then making it hard for her to speak, and eventually even causing her difficulty breathing.
She begins to lose weight rapidly, leading to physical and mental weakness. She becomes irritable with friends, who insist she has anorexia, and begins falling behind at work. She also begins to have difficulty orally arguing in court on behalf of her clients, many of whom she feels a great deal of sympathy for and strongly believes have been wrongly convicted. At one point she nearly loses a court case when the ball prevents her from breathing.
After medical tests show the condition is purely psychological, she begins seeing a psychologist. But at first he is not much help. After several crises - one involving a serious fight with her fiance over her rapidly decreasing weight, and one involving a dramatic courtroom episode -- she demands answers from him. He finally helps her uncover the origins of her problem, in childhood, and their reasons for continuing into adulthood. Through him, her friends Thom, an artist, and Francie, a fashion maven, and even Toby, a quirky Sing-Sing residing client of hers, Sophie begins to confront her demons, re-imagine herself and find her voice, so to speak.