AuntieThorne

I am a 47 year old woman. I am a mother, a grandmother, a sister, daughter. I am wise and naive, thoughtful and foolish, analytical and intuitive. I have been a wife, a widow and am now a "partner". I am a writer, and an artist having earned my living by my creativity for most of my adult life. My current focus is body art in the form of... more »

I am a 47 year old woman. I am a mother, a grandmother, a sister, daughter. I am wise and naive, thoughtful and foolish, analytical and intuitive. I have been a wife, a widow and am now a "partner". I am a writer, and an artist having earned my living by my creativity for most of my adult life. My current focus is body art in the form of custom permanent tattoo. I am a feminist, a humanist, an environmentalist; a witch. I am a crone before my time, having passed my moontides for some years now. I am a recovering alcoholic and addict of 20+ years of sobriety. I have clinical depression, PTSD and panic syndrome which are treated and manageable. I have fibromyalgia which is not currently medically treated but was, until about 10 weeks ago, under control and managed by diet, meditation and self awareness. I am struggling with acceptance of the term "disabled" as it applies to me.
I am a free thinker, I question authority, am an embarrassed conspiracy theorist, and a pretty far left activist.
I am the matriarch out of line of our clan, and live on 40 acres in the High Desert (Mojave) of So. Cali, where I share my home with my partner; the girlyboi love of my life, 3 dogs, 2 cats and 5 rescued/rehomed companion parrots and one spoiled cockatoo. My disabled mom lives in a separate house here on the ranch, as does my "sister-in-law" and her 2 teenage sons.
I am grieving the loss of my precious grandson of only 6 months who died last October of SIDS. I am deeply mourning my powerlessness over the unspeakable loss his mother, my only child and daughter, is suffering. After 34 years of deep and focused spiritual study, practice and faith this loss has brought me to an existential crisis.
I am grieving the death of my darling grandmother who died 7-3-08 at a well lived 90 years of age, (and lovingly cared for by me for the last 10 years of her life), but who i miss deeply.
Until last Oct I was an avid Blogger and online activist, a dedicated and creative organic gardener and do-it-yourself-er. I am a one time successful NaNoWriMo novelist, and intend to participate again this coming November.
I am trying to find myself again, or better yet- recreate myself in the wake of my recent life-quakes.
"It's a good life, if you don't weaken"
~~anonymous attributed by Ruby I Escher, 1918-2008

You may read my Blog at http://thornseworld.wordpress.com


*If a book on my shelf is/remains unrated, unreviewed or is listed as solely "on my shelf", one may assume either:
a) I intend (eventually) to read it
or
b) I use it for reference « less