In the past, I've been brutally honest; that had not been received well. Turning to a life of idiocy, I spent hours in my head looking for the right thing to say, only to have my efforts fall on deaf ears, my words not quite believable, the receiver not understanding the journey to my verbalizations. On the flip side, I admit to listening to...more »

In the past, I've been brutally honest; that had not been received well. Turning to a life of idiocy, I spent hours in my head looking for the right thing to say, only to have my efforts fall on deaf ears, my words not quite believable, the receiver not understanding the journey to my verbalizations. On the flip side, I admit to listening to only enough to get the gist of a conversation, then switching to speak mode in my mind, preparing my response, completely tuned out to the ending. Later I realized a situation may have required further examination [read: shut up, absorb, and speak later].

On the cusp of 35, please bear with me as I attempt a sabbatical of the mouth. I expect I won't be well-liked (although it has been an issue I'm dealing with, you know... wanting to be liked). Instead, I seek wisdom, the ability to know when my crap is my crap and your crap is your crap.

There are books that are read pre-epiphany and post-epiphany. I expect you'll see a change; then again maybe not. My musings are not constant, but ever-evolving. Perhaps you will notice a change in tone, an honesty that's been lost within me, one I seek to remember. I am but a human... please keep that in mind. « less