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Tarrasa says

Thanks for accepting. ^_^ Yep, Death Note was the first manga I ever read, and is still my favourite. [3

posted 1 year ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

Found it ... the Kozel ...
in a pub about ... six/seven miles from me ...

posted 2 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

Where the H*ll are you? FIVE days gone now?
Are you OK?
Or do I have to get on a plane to Turku? .... and start checking saunas??

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

Narsk !!!
I'm sorry I haven't gotten back to you sooner.
I've had some things going on.
But, I don't think I've mentioned this before, but you know one thing that I have noticed about you more than once?
You NEVER initiate !
You only respond. Which is better than nothing I suppose.
But it is a constant.
Guess you have a life of your own to live, huh?

I can't find that page again. Haven't spent a whole hellof a lot of time looking, but I can't find it.
When I say medieval, yeah .... dark ...long dresses, think you had warpaint on in one or two of them, one looked like you were crawling out of the underground in it ....
one had a peasant dress ...other than that I don't remember much.
Why would I look around for it or do a search on your name?
I don't know I think that is somewhat of a silly question.
Because I like you, you are my friend (pen-pal), I have been in conversations with you,
you show me a certain side of yourself or certain aspects ....
so being the curious animal that I am,
I go looking for more.
Figured that was pretty self evident in the nature of my personality
due to our conversations.
Two o'clock in the morning there, this being middle of the week, you're probably asleep.

And yes ... you're last note was almost allll football. I actually found myself watching the damn thing at the bar (pub) the other evening.
Also found myself looking for Kozel.
Must be around somewhere.

This is a touching base memo.
I'll get back with something more ...esoteric ... arcane ... cabalistic ...shortly.

Rick
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posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I need a Patron ....

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I just found a typo .. should read ... if I send you messages at "THREE"
in the morning my time ...
it's best to consider that I have a bottle of Patron in me ....

I don't drink beer ...

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

OK ... didn't know exactly how I was going to approach it ...
truth is .. I've been having problems with my system so the computers been down a bit ...
but then ... if I stayed away too long .. especially with the last message I left you ...
I thought...
she's going to think ... being the European all powerful been here forever before anyone else on the planet psycho chick that she is ,
she's going to think that I'm a typical American p*ssy afraid to walk into a sauna naked ...
and backed away from her ...
which to a degree ... I did.
Quite honestly ... you worried me.
Most people go through what you're going through during the fall and winter months ... your the bizarre type who hates the spring ...
... ... ...
what else ....

Honestly again .... seriously ... how many "Narsku's" do you think there are on the internet?
are you really that young to be so silly ?? well ... I know you are that young ... but I also know you are not that foolish ...
so I found this site you posted with some very interesting medieval photos ....
and I think that was where you name was listed ...
either that... or it was your postcard site ....
I don't recall ...
are you afraid now???
are you terrified ???
of what?
ME?
believe me ... i am the last person that you have anything to fear of ....
I think of you as my friend ...
and I honestly do not want to lose you in that respect ....
have I violated boundaries ??
probably ....
am I sorry ... I don't think so ... I was simply trying to find out more about you ....
and your messages to me are some times somewhat ... cryptic ...
am I suprising you with any of this ???
I think not ...
Am I going to come there ??
No.
Unless you invite me ... then I will definitely.
Am I going to kill you?
I don't even know where that is coming from ....
would I like to spend an hour or so with you naked in a sauna ....?
Yes ...
Where that came from I have no idea .... but I wrote it anyway ...
if you were going to "delete" me .. I think you would have already ....
it was a harmless comment from 7m miles ...

what else ???
you knew you set me back ...
so instead ... I'm back ...
Which makes you more at ease my enchanting friend ??

one last thing ... if I send you messages at like these in the morning my time ...
it's best to realize that I probably have a bottle of Patron in me by then ....
so I cannot be held responsible for "all" that I say ....

does that make it right ? No.

that's not true .... I am held responsible for all ...

I don't know ... I may come to Finland ... I think you are .....
oh Hell ... I shouldn't say it ... but you know it already ....

never mind ....


Confused or enlightened?
or turned?

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

...ok....

... stopped ...

... but you are a little psycho chick ....

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I've changed my mind.
If you leave me, stop talking to me,
I'm coming to Finland.
I will find you.
But it would only be to look in your eyes, and see this psycho chick that I have met,
that i have come to know,
caress your cheek, touch your braids,
... but I will NOT go naked into a sauna ...

only to know that you are well ...

you worry me ...

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

and what do you mean "nonsense"? I was worried about you.

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I'm absorbing ...
OK. I'll lay back. You worried me.
Yes, I threw a few things out thing to make you think.
Am I a psycho killer stalker? No.
Will I track you down if I think you are going to hurt yourself.

You're g*ddamn right right I will.

Did I misinterpret you on purpose? No. I'm trying to read in between.
I don't like when you disappear and then you seem so upset ...

IF paragraph two is a threat to stop talking to me ... OK .. I'll lay back.
But you are my friend.
Or I would like to think so.

And you may very well "chat with the wrong people on the internet" ..
but I am not one of them.

I feel like you threatened me.
I feel like you threatened to leave me, or stop talking to me.

You made me laugh though. Do I really seem psychotic?

OK, your PMS cycle is the first week of the month,
so i know now to take that into consideration then ...

noted ...

what else?

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I don't know where to begin with you .. other than to tell you that you drive me crazy sometimes ...you are my friend... I think you are my friend .. you are probably the first person who began tolerating me me here on the "shelf" .. and I have gotten into many conversations with you .. but believe me .. if I were a psycho stalker .. I would right now be on a plane to Finland and I WOULD find you .. I would ask everyone if they knew of any beautiful psycho chick with almond eyes who was 5 foot tall, kicked *ss in jujitsu, hung out in saunas with naked men, screamed at soccer matches ..and hated the spring ....
you concern me very much ...

you wish you had a bigger gun ..
that's the kind of statement that IS going to get me on a plane, Hanna...

I'm not going to preach ....I already have to a degree ...

but I will tell you right the f*ck now ..if I think that you are going to hurt yourself .. I;ll be there in .. what ...nine hours ....

I care about you ...

you are my friend ...

I do not like to her you so upset ...

"the Sound of Snow under Foot in below freezing temperature..."

you know you are beautiful, don't you?

smile ....

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

I worry about you, Snow ... I know it's probably just school .... but I worry about you ... and your state of mind ..

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

So what is it , Narsk ? My Sound of Snow underfoot sounds more like it has caught some gravel in it .. and she's, not having a hard time walking, but .... you're .. disgruntled, not so much angry; perhaps you have been working too much. And there is too little in your life to sit you back and make you happy ... at at the very least for moments? It's not all school and kick *ss, though I know the school part of it you can;t control .. so there is going to have to be a certain amount of acceptance in that. Like I should talk, being the one who walked out of Pratt.
And "I don't like to hear you talk about yourself" ... like when you say that you should stick to knitting and baking, that isn't you either ...things don't have to be one extreme or the other.. it's not just blacks and whites, though sometimes in the winters of Finland I'll bet it looks like that; all stark and opposites. But there are the "greyities" of life also.
You're 20 - - - 21 .... there's so much time ahead of you (you're probably raising your eyes and head to the sky now like I should preach to you) .. ..
It's just that I think of you as my friend to the degree that I have been able to convince you to endure me, and it disturbs me to hear you so distressed.
I can do little if anything from here. But try and talk to you 12 hours
and a half a world away.
I have all three of the Conan movies. I "think" I'm looking forward to the new Red Sonja, but I'm not certain just yet.
Being directed by Rodriguez. The guy who did Sin City with Miller.

"I" care about you ..... even if you do not yet have grand children.

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

... and you aren't going straight to grandchildren without a relationship and life/family of your own. Just get that out of your "poor me, pour me, pour me another drink" head ...

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

HHhhmmmm ... she's there, but it doesn't sound like my old "Sound of Snow underfoot" ...
I feel like saying "What the H*ll, Narsk !!" with the knee thing. Leave it alone a bit ..
you sound like me and my shoulder ...I'm going to start picking up the plates no matter what the rehabs say ... "Wow, you have such great range of motion for only two weeks aftyer surgery" ...
so it's like ...yeah so leave me the f*ck alone and I know what to do to get myself back ...

I'm going to write you a chapter later on .. you can read it when you want ... you're drinking beers already (7:30 there) and I'm still on cappuccinos ...

I DID want to ask you one thing tho if you didn't mind.
I've got like four years French (don't ask me why, I don't know) and I'm going to take it conversational just to have the background, but I want to learn the Eastern European nations languages.
Where do I start?
Who would have the basic background from which I could expand into others ...
or am I thinking about this the entirely wrong way ??

Let me know ...
you're probably going to send me a lecture ...

and this thing about the ten page essay ....
its things like that that "made" me walk out of Pratt ...
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posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

Narsk!!! Snow!! Are you OK?
I don't recall who "owes" whom last ...
but I haven't seen you on for few days and wanted to check and make certain things are well ... between school and your football games.
Stop by and touch base sometime...

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Kaijin says

I have decided to copyright "Sound of Snow" ...
you're going to be a character in one of MY books !!!!
... so be nice !!!! ... or don't ... depends on how you want to be portrayed ...
I know .. the hard-kick *ss false facade chick on the outside .. and the willow on the in ..

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Kaijin says

You know, it's true. I have to remember to whom I am speaking. This country is only a little over 200 years old, and I look around at some of the creations and I think how beautiful they are. The civilizations where you are are thousands of years old. So all is not comparable. But that makes these things nonetheless beautiful. I could only, and perhaps I cannot truly, imagine how beautiful the churches and castles are in Europe. Someday, I will not have to imagine.
And the "church into a pub" idea ... have I mentioned that to you already?
Because that was my idea for many, many years. I wanted to buy St. Andrews, but it is now a historic landmark. But I have always wanted to buy a church, whether to turn it into a home, or into a restaurant/tavern ... a "Monk's Inn" of sorts ....

"Sound of Snow" .... I like that for you. May I call you that?
(Since I am anyway ... but I will desist if you insist!)
I could have my own "pet" name (what a pet though, no?) for you ...
though it was you yourself who engendered it ...

posted 3 years ago. ( send a note )

Kaijin says

Yes, you are an evil, wicked woman. You disappear into the haze, with ne'er a glance of your almond green eyes back, your scent wafting upon the air like frozen smoke crystals of perfume, trailing behind on the dying grey winter's gentle breeze... you are evil. Which is what makes you intriguing also.

And totally unimpressed.
I knew you would not be concerned with the city,
but I thought you might be interested to glance over them if for a second.
I thought at lest some of the shots of St Johns might interest you.
Or the older church St. Andrews ....

But no. Perhaps I know less of you than I had thought.
Even with your multi-paragraph missives, it is still something of a mystery to decipher you.
But then, I'm certain also, you do not attempt to try to be terribly revealing either.
After all ... to what end?

"Some people really have issues." .... had to smile when I saw this. Some people, huh?
But not you, oh Sound of Snow ....

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